I Will Be Alone And Friendless Until I Die.

It is pretty hard for me to make lasting friends.

Not because I am a weirdo, but because 1) I've never really needed to, because I've had my cousins, and 2) I don't like opening up to new people unless I spend a lot, lot, lot of forced time with them (in a good way...like a roommate).  I just don't put energy into making new friends like some people do, and I especially fail at making new lasting friends.

But now that I don't have girl roommates any more, and Missy and Stephanie have moved away, I have started thinking more about the fact that, in a year or two, I am going to be completely removed from pretty much all of my friends when Tim & I go off to law school.

I will pretty much have to make new friends or die.

This is scary to me.  Mostly because I don't want to make new friends; I just want my old ones to be around me for the rest of my life.

Right now, I am in my "how to learn to make friends" stage.  Seriously.  I really am stumped as to how one goes from being casual acquaintances to besties.  I've never really had to do that outside of roommates, because I just grew up with my cousins and it just happened.  And the only reason I became really good friends with Nik, Hay, and Deb was because we lived together.  I mean, of course I am so glad that we did become friends, but still, that is the sad truth of it.  We probably wouldn't be good friends today if we had just been in the same ward.  I am 24 years old and just realizing that I am really great at making casual acquaintances, but really horrible at making actual, life-long friends.
I am also just really horrible at keeping in touch with people, so that adds another layer of complication on the whole matter.

Anyway, I'm trying to learn how to make better friends so that when I go to Law School I won't feel completely abandoned.

And that's all I have to say about friends.


  1. i will teach you how to make friends. it's surprisingly easy. i never would have thought....

    p.s. can you change the 1564765735 step process it takes to make a comment on your blog? please.

  2. Once upon a time in a faraway land called Idaho I had a friend exactally like you. We should be friends again...just saying.


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